Oh my god I'm such a loser. I started reading, and then I had to stop because it hurt too much. I can't help but to freak out about the Bob rumor, even if I know the source it's completely unreliable, but I guess I'm still afraid that it'll be true. So like I said, I had to stop because I started to cry (yeah, I'm that pathetic), but then I composed myself and read it, and I'm so glad I did.
First of all, I loved how Brian wished he could've hugged Bob, but instead he said "my couch is your couch", because it just showed how well he knows Bob.
It broke my heart to imagine the meeting when they fired Brian, with Gerard being uncapable of looking at Brian, and Mikey texting him that he was sorry.
And then when Bob says that he doesn't know why, and Brian thinks about how Gerard's the only one who can fuck up as much as he wants without being thrown out, I just had to stop reading. It hurt way too much. Then I read it a second time and it still hurt, not because of the rumor, but because it broke my heart that Bob wasn't even sure why it had happened. He knew it was partly because of his wrists, but also because of the argument, and it killed me that he didn't understand why this argument was different; because I'm sure that they had way worse arguments at the Paramour and they didn't throw anyone out, so why now? I could totally read the "was it really that different, or were just trying to find an excuse to get rid of me?" that he didn't say.
I loved how Brian didn't regret anything he did for Gerard and for the band, even if they fired him and now Bob. Because even after that, he did it all because he believed in their music, and the music was still out there, partly thanks to him, so it was worth it. Like Brian said, life is what life is.
I also loved how Bob knew Brian couldn't fix it, but he let him try anyway. I adored that they hold hands during the blowjob, that Brian didn't want anything in return, that he just wanted Bob to sleep while his mind was distracted from the fact that he no longer had a job. And then of course Bob repaid him anyway because Bob's a gentleman like that ♥
I LOVED THE ENDING. I loved the idea of them opening a music school, of the band helping them, but especially I loved that everything was easy for them, that something really good came out of something really bad, because if anyone deserve a happy ending, it's them.
I wish I had the words to properly express how much this fic meant to me, especially now. Thank you very much.
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So like I said, I had to stop because I started to cry (yeah, I'm that pathetic), but then I composed myself and read it, and I'm so glad I did.
First of all, I loved how Brian wished he could've hugged Bob, but instead he said "my couch is your couch", because it just showed how well he knows Bob.
It broke my heart to imagine the meeting when they fired Brian, with Gerard being uncapable of looking at Brian, and Mikey texting him that he was sorry.
And then when Bob says that he doesn't know why, and Brian thinks about how Gerard's the only one who can fuck up as much as he wants without being thrown out, I just had to stop reading. It hurt way too much.
Then I read it a second time and it still hurt, not because of the rumor, but because it broke my heart that Bob wasn't even sure why it had happened. He knew it was partly because of his wrists, but also because of the argument, and it killed me that he didn't understand why this argument was different; because I'm sure that they had way worse arguments at the Paramour and they didn't throw anyone out, so why now? I could totally read the "was it really that different, or were just trying to find an excuse to get rid of me?" that he didn't say.
I loved how Brian didn't regret anything he did for Gerard and for the band, even if they fired him and now Bob. Because even after that, he did it all because he believed in their music, and the music was still out there, partly thanks to him, so it was worth it. Like Brian said, life is what life is.
I also loved how Bob knew Brian couldn't fix it, but he let him try anyway. I adored that they hold hands during the blowjob, that Brian didn't want anything in return, that he just wanted Bob to sleep while his mind was distracted from the fact that he no longer had a job.
And then of course Bob repaid him anyway because Bob's a gentleman like that ♥
I LOVED THE ENDING. I loved the idea of them opening a music school, of the band helping them, but especially I loved that everything was easy for them, that something really good came out of something really bad, because if anyone deserve a happy ending, it's them.
I wish I had the words to properly express how much this fic meant to me, especially now. Thank you very much.
xo
Laura.