I knew, somehow, I was pretty sure it was true. Blame my cursed intuition when it comes to emotions, I guess. That's why I wrote the story I wrote, because I couldn't let go of it until I had, and now it's true, and--FUCK, Mel. He's really important to me. I'm so happy for everyone who can be sure they'll still love the band and be excited about it and feel like it's still the band--I don't know that I can. They're rerecording! He was really excited about the new album! FUCK. Honestly, I really mean that I'm happy for people, but I just--dammit, dammit, dammit.

At least we know Brian and him still talk. ;__;