yeah, i don't know

[harborshore]

I didn't want to be right when I wrote that story. I was writing it so I would get the sheer possibility of it out of my head. It was good to write it, because I managed to give Bob and Brian a happy ending, but fuck, I really didn't want to be right. Goddammit. I don't know what to say about this. I don't even know how I feel about this.

I have a number of favorite things about Bob. The list starts like this:

1. He rescues dogs.

2. He's seriously fucking good at what he does.







Feel free to continue in comments. Videos, photos, favorite things about Bob. That's what I'd like to talk about today. Also, I need a hug. Who wants to have a cuddle party?

Comments

[wasoncedelight.livejournal.com]

I thought it was odd that no one on my flist was talking about the rumor, but I think we were all too afraid it might be true. Even while we were probably all thinking that it was too ridiculous to be true, because it's Bob and it's MCR and it would never happen.

Sigh.

*cling*

[harborshore.livejournal.com]

I knew, somehow, I was pretty sure it was true. Blame my cursed intuition when it comes to emotions, I guess. That's why I wrote the story I wrote, because I couldn't let go of it until I had, and now it's true, and--FUCK, Mel. He's really important to me. I'm so happy for everyone who can be sure they'll still love the band and be excited about it and feel like it's still the band--I don't know that I can. They're rerecording! He was really excited about the new album! FUCK. Honestly, I really mean that I'm happy for people, but I just--dammit, dammit, dammit.

At least we know Brian and him still talk. ;__;

[wasoncedelight.livejournal.com]

I totally, TOTALLY understand. Bob IS very important, period. It won't be the same without him, none of it will, and while I'm glad and grateful that MCR is still trucking on, it hurts, too. I just hope they don't scrap everything they'd done with Bob, because that would just gut me even more, and I don't know if I could handle that.

And I know what you mean, about your story. R and I were talking last night about the one I *didn't* write, that we'd talked about a while back, about Bob having to leave the band. And on the one hand I'm so glad I never wrote it, but on the other, I'm morbidly tempted to do it now. IDK, maybe it would be cathartic. But I think it's too soon, in too many ways.

I am glad, though, to know that he and Brian are still friends. TBH I still haven't even gotten over Brian being gone, so this is a double whammy, but it does help a little, to know the two of them are still good.

[harborshore.livejournal.com]

I've seen comparisons to when Matt left, and I'm just like, um, stop that right now. I feel really weird about them rerecording or doing new songs, because according to what we'd heard, the album was done, right? So they're taking away the music he was involved in, too? OW OW OW, that's really painful.

I'm glad it exists, because there's a happy ending, but I couldn't have written it, or, no, it would have turned out more mean if I'd known it really was true. It's like--I got angry when Brian left, because, you know, and I sort of got over that, but no, I didn't, and now all that hurt is coming back (thank god they still talk, that made me really happy).

Wow, incoherent. Also, wow, overinvested. Time to make dinner.

[wasoncedelight.livejournal.com]

It DOES hurt that they're recording new songs, and as far as we knew they were done with the album, but I don't want to think it's about taking anything away from anybody. BRB, putting my blinders on. I just... I need to cling to SOMETHING, because this band means too much to me, and change is inevitable and I can't lose all of them. Not yet, not without knowing SOMETHING solid and not just speculating.

And of course the story would've turned out differently if you'd written it now. Be glad they got their happy ending, and know that their real-life friendship is still intact, and take the rest as it comes. ♥

[harborshore.livejournal.com]

Oh no! I know it's not about taking things away from him, I was just being very LOL!ENTITLED and being grumpy about not even getting to hear the music he was so happy about playing (no kidding, that drumming video is breaking my fucking heart). I really want you to take whatever comfort you need to take, sweetheart.

(The other thing is, the possibility of his wrists being that bad is really horrible too--because then he can't play. I was trying to imagine someone taking away my singing voice and ow, no, no. Basically I'm going to stay away from most other entries talking about this until I'm calmer, I think.)

I'm very glad about that, I'm so glad they still talk. ♥

[wasoncedelight.livejournal.com]

I... can't imagine they'll scrap EVERYTHING they recorded with him, but then, who knows? I'm fighting the disillusionment tooth and nail right now, because it's Bob and I love him and I don't want him to be hurting at all, in any way. I just want them all--ALL--to be happy, and all I can do is trust that whatever led them here, this is what's best. And whatever happens from here on out is for the best, too.